I saw your message and it took a lot of restraint not to reply. I did say I’d stay away since I’d become the thorn in the rose garden of your lives. Withdrawal symptoms hit me me hard and through it all I was confused. Love lost a day after I was losing you. Forced to become familiar strangers. I really did want you to give a speech at my wedding. Life had other plans, I thought this would be a message but I realize that I’m just venting.
I did mean it when I said I don’t like meeting people. You get close then they’re gone, just like that. Leaving you broken and you have to rebuild yourself again. I’ll never forget the words you told me, aspects of life, like a big sister you molded me. I do wish we’d have more time together. Coffee and cake are now just a thought of my imagination.
No one knows what really happened except the two of us. Answers are needed but I won’t be the one to give them. So I bite my tongue and try not to lose the rhythm. Life will sort itself out in the end, I guess.
It’s not all doom and gloom, I did find someone at the same place you left me. Fun, crazy and sexxxy, she does make me happy. I know you would be proud so don’t worry about me, know I’m good, navigated the darkness and found my way into the light. So when you see me from across the road, just wave, for old times sake, since we might never have hello.