I know it’s a minute since I’ve bared my soul to you but yesterday being Mother’s Day reminded how much I miss you. Your boy’s grown now, almost 30, still looking for a daughter-in-law for you. Thought I’d found her but it’s complicated… Wish I could talk to you face to face about this but I guess this letter will have to do. You set a standard that’s difficult to beat. Uncle Noel even told me that if I’m looking for someone like you I’ll be looking forever. Truth is, none can take your place. I’ll be happy with just a drop of your character. And no I’m not being difficult, I’m just treating them how I’d want you to be treated.
After Dad passed away we never really had time to each other, if I wasn’t at school I was in Zengeza, which I regret. I know how much you love your boy. I know I was a pain in my teenage years but I understand now that I wasn’t the only one that lost Dad, you did too. It was your name fulfilling itself but I’m sorry for all the times I made you cry. If I could you would have a redo of this life. If I could hear your voice just one more time, one more hug, one more opportunity to remind me what I’m destined to be. I miss you Mom. More than I can ever fully express.
13 years later I’m a grown man now, you have the Shumbas to thank for that. You left us in safe hands. I did find out about my other sister but we’re estranged. Maybe time will fix things, maybe not. There are so many questions that only you and Dad can answer but I’ll just have to work with what I think you would approve of. The weight gets heavy some days and I feel drained but I know I have to look out for your daughter. We don’t always agree but I do have her best interests at heart. Hoping that she’ll turn out to be at least half of what you were…
‘Til I see you again…
Your Only Son