I have been trying to eat healthily and exercise for the longest time now. I have been succeeding so far. I exercise maybe 5 times a week, my meals are mainly vegetables because I’ve seen how too much starch irritates my stomach. There’s meat as well, I’m not a monster. I love my meat! I’m slowly winning with drinking 2 litres of water. I am slowly becoming a fitness machine. My only weakness, however, is chocolate.
See, chocolate and I have a past. I loved chocolate, you guys. Cadbury and Lindt (when I could afford it) were my favourite brands. When I’d shop, I’d reward myself with chocolate. When I did well in an exam, chocolate was my go to. I’d have chocolate in many forms: cake, cookies (those chocolate chip cookies from Connections? Thank me later!), brownies, hot chocolate. That was my life.
I then realised that I was having too much chocolate, and I decided to cut it (slowly of course) out of my life. I thought I had won. I had cut out my major weakness from my diet.
He he… but chocolate does not give up so easily. Chocolate is everywhere, so there is no way to avoid it. At first, I succeeded in pretending it didn’t exist. I’d look straight ahead in coffee shops, supermarkets, vendors stalls. Then one day as I was grocery shopping, I kid you not, I heard a whisper as I was in the queue at the till.
Me: **looking around nervously*
Chocolate: Yes, I’m talking to you. You haven’t eaten me in a while… did I do something wrong?
Me: **silently assessing myself for schizophrenia*
Chocolate: How have you been? How’s the family? You’re looking rather fit. Have you been working out?
Me: **still trying to understand if a bar of chocolate is talking to me right now*
Chocolate: I’ve seen your husband from time to time. He seems like a nice guy.
Me: **thinking whether I should answer… why is this queue taking so long to move!!*
Chocolate: You know we’re great tog-
Finally, the queue moved, and I was paying for my groceries. I was still baffled though as I took my walk back home. Did… chocolate just speak to me? Did it sound like that ex you never thought you’d see who bumps into you and looks you up and down before proclaiming their undying love for you? What was happening? Was I crazy?
From that day on, all I could think about was chocolate. I would cook my healthy meals and wonder what would happen if I had chocolate instead. When I’d eat, it didn’t matter how amazing my food tasted, all I could think of was chocolate. I was happy with my healthy lifestyle. But chocolate was different, it was exciting, it made me feel things my green smoothies never did. I felt so guilty. I wanted to go back to the supermarket and get some chocolate. I had committed to a healthy lifestyle, but surely, one chocolate couldn’t hurt.
Next week was my shopping day, and I walked into the same supermarket. I was so nervous, what if chocolate was there? I was feeling so guilty because I was ready to give in to temptation. If chocolate said anything to me, I was going to take it home with me and eat it. Eat all of it. I was ready. Who knows what I would tell my healthy meal today, but today I was going to let junk fill me up. I got all my groceries and went to the till. I looked around the till and gasped.
There was no chocolate.
The little shelves were filled with chewing gum, the little maize and peanut snacks and sweets. No chocolate in sight. I almost laughed out loud. My healthy meal was saved! No chocolate! No sweet seduction pulling me away from my fitness goals anymore! I did a little dance as I put my groceries on the till. Just as I was about to pay, I heard that whisper again:
There it was! Wedged between the Stimorol and Dandy gums. I did not think twice, I grabbed it and placed it among my groceries.
Oh well. One chocolate won’t hurt, will it?